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Don’t talk to me
Please don’t fucking talk to me
Don’t bother me
Please don’t fucking talk to me
That’s not my name
That’s not my life
That’s not my choice
Like you ever really had a choice
I didn’t ask to be here
I’m doing what I can
I didn’t ask to know that name
I never thought it was mine
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Death
Death
Now my oldest friend
Death
Death
This loss will never end
Over and over another body piles
Never an escape despite
How much I try
The mass of bodies growing from disease and suicide
Their names will not be written
In a book that is not mine
All the world burns
In a book that is not mine
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I wake up to the sound a million banging drums
I don’t know where the fuck i am
I don’t know who the fuck you are
And now the walls are closing in
Familiar demons always smiling in my wake
Now I’m crunching the numbers, stuffing em in my mouth
One by two by three by four they’re screaming I am right
And when the Seven approached the Six after the seven ate nine
I can not bear to look but you pull me in to stay
The seven opens up its mouth, and shows me many teeth it screams
You will always fear me.
My smile starts to look like ink dripping off a page from a book a I’ve never read
We are books with empty pages
So let’s rewrite the past and forget our fucking names
I want to forget
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Tell me how you wanna fuck me
Tell me what you wanna do to me
I want you to make me hurt
I want you to make me hurt
Tell me everything that’s wrong
I want to carry your pain
My problems aren’t important
Let me take on yours
I’m sorry for telling you what’s wrong with me
I’m sorry for making you listen to me
I’m sorry for making you validate me
I don’t want to be a burden
Let me service you
Let me be your plaything
I don’t care about my own pleasure
I just want to make you feel good
I just want to make you feel good
My only value is what I can give
I’ll give you my body
I’ll take on your hurt
I just want you to feel good
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Your constant noise
Like the buzzing of flies
I seek silence
An end to your existence.
Make it stop
Make it all stop
I want off this fucking ride
Get me out of here
Every word like a dagger
Will you turn to face me
Reduced to an insect
No try to erase me
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I
Literally
Just came in
Here to piss
And now this
I’m every man’s maid
I’m not getting paid by the hour or the stall
For every seat and every drip
For every baby fluid missed
I want the cost collection
I’m deserved
Compensation
For every seat and every drip
For every baby fluid missed
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Soft tissue gives way to synthetic
Always does, baby
And the old blood pours out
And the coolant flows in
I give up my physical form
in the belly of the machine
Forever indebted to
a mother that cannot love me
Born anew in a world that fears me
The whole party hears me
They feel the flame that sears me
Bring them to tears
In case they'd ever dare to cheer me
But the terror turns to curiosity.
It always does, stuck on repeat
Even though the flesh isn't real
I'm treated like a piece of meat
They dance with the android, get their hands dirty
They hump and cum into a soulless void
Oblivious to the ways this cunt will let them down
I'm not something they'd want to touch
If they knew where I've been hanging out
Project something more profound
onto whatever comes out of my mouth
I gave up my physical form
in the belly of the machine
Burned up my body in a
big fucking fireball
And now I'm a mind trapped in a program
No presence, no awareness
Sterile and unblinking
just how I'm supposed to be
Their lips, their tongues, on what they think is skin
I almost start to feel bad for them
They want something authentic
Instead, they get this
Their sweat, their saliva, I almost miss the taste
But at the end of the day it's just waste
I have no use for pleasure anymore
A cybernetic whore
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Dead and dreaming
Every day
I long for solace
This life pains me
The grim reality is fucking haunting me
And I refuse to live this way
Only time will tell
When everything will be okay
I’m still finding myself
But it’s too late
My hourglass is all out of sand
Would you please hold my hand?
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9. |
Manic Panic Attack!
01:15
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I’m getting closer to implosion
It gets worse every day
I don’t know how i can make it stop
Every morning is another mistake
There’s this heavy feeling in my chest
The weight of the world over my head
Every passing moment nails on marble
I wish that I could go back to bed
I can’t escape, the shaking feeling
By the end of the night I could be dead
I can’t escape, the shaking feeling
By the end of the night I could be dead
Never knowing what’s around the corner
Always watching where your foot steps closely
Never knowing how the day will end
When I wake up I can’t leave my bed
Everything is fine
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RAWR!
01:35
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I'd like to see you on the dancefloor
I'd like to see you fuckin' work it baby work it baby
I wanna see you bleed out on the dance floor
We could do this all night, ever night
Mother
Don't worry
I'm hanging out with the girls tonight
We're going dancin in the parking lot
Don't worry about the things we brought
It's not like we're gonna get caught
Don't worry
I'm hanging out with the girls tonight
We're going dancin' in the parking logt
It's not like we're gonna get caught
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Bodies tangled in motion
Legs like wires twisted
Sweat oozing from every pore
And blood for every incision
No clear sense of who i was
But he watches me with malice
Running in place on hamster wheel
With every step that blurs my vision
I’m talking way too much
I know I can’t shut up
Maybe I’m still stuck
Maybe I’m just bad luck
Maybe I’m real depressed
I wish I could get dressed
My muscles growing tense
This is the weight of stress
I wish I could be less
Leave this world and watch it burn
Leave this place and perish
No future left to inherit
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